ok so not like this title really relates to this but maybe in some ways it does. i am answering question 2 tonite. i can't sleep so i figured i would knock off some questions and get some posts up. i'm trying really hard to be the good person and do everything that i need to do but with the new job i'm feeling a little overwhelmed so there may not be as many posts or maybe there will be more if i keep not being able to sleep. sooo. neways the title is from ashley parker angel's song let u go. that's right ashley angel from o-town. that's what i'm listening to right now. blast from the past. only saw them in concert like 6 times. i was a little bit of a stalker. lol.
so today's topic is what i do when i'm happy!!!!
happiness. that's a funny word. its sa word i've never fully understood.
happiness to me is pure bliss and lack of sadness but i dont' believe that is an accurate description of happiness. rather, it is my distorted view of happiness. when i am happy i tend to eat less. its easier for me to control my portions and eat 3 or so meals a day. when i'm happy i'm the nicest person (in my mind), the silliest person who will do anything to make someone laugh. who laughs at herself at just at life. i'm not someone who is brought down easily by negative thoughts. when i am happy i am an extrovert. talking to everyone and anyone. when i am happy i spend more time with the people i love; my friends, my family, etc. when i am happy i smile, something that has not been seen very often on my face lately. but is creeping back up when i least expect it. when i am happy i am outgoing, always meeting new people, making new friends, etc. i love to be happy. ( then again who doesn't love to be happy) when i am happy i take risks, not necessarily dangerous risks but risks that make me vulnerable to others, places my emotions out there and lets me take risks. when i'm happy the perfectionism goes away, i am myself. not the pieces of myself that i think others want to see of me. when i'm happy i'm more willing to do silly things. i'm more self confident. when i'm happy i go out of my way to make others happy. i consider others and their feelings first. when i'm happy i'm NOT the victim. when i am unhappy i tend to play the victim. i'm more likely to just tell people what i thought they wanted to hear.
happiness is something i'm still trying to understand. its not an emotion i'm used to dealing with. but i'm learning. i'm better, so much better when i'm happy. i've also learned that happiness is a choice. i can choose to focus on the negative aspects, on the negative thoughts. when i'm happy i focus on positive things. the things i do right, not my food, not my weight, not my material goos, etc.
happiness is a feeling i'm just learning to deal with. and i like it. i like making the decision every day to be a happier person. the decision not to let the obsessive thoughts rule my life. which is what i've done for so long. its what i've done my whole life. its my decision to be happy and right now i'm choosing to be happy.
so there it is. what i do when i'm happy i'm not so sure that i answered the question well or completely. but i answered it honestly. which is something i'm getting better at.
well i'm going to go work on something that i need for tommorrow. maybe i'll answer another question later tonight. maybe it will be a few days. but i leave you with this thought tonight. happiness is a choice. when are you going to choose to make it yours.
I think it's interesting to think of happiness as a choice. I think it's a lifestyle choice. You can choose to be a happy person...doesn't mean things are great all the time, just means that you are having a good attitude
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